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| Here are SOME my expenses: John Carroll Univ. Tuition = $32,000/yr
Books and Lab = $700.00
School Supples = $250.00
Parking Permit = $150.00
Idiotic Professors = priceless
Common folks! You WOULD think if I find myself a nice ~$40,000 Jesuit Liberal Arts University that ranks second in northeastern USA for their business program that they would hire a professor with some common sense.. and of course, maybe.. umm i dunno? TEACH?... Why oh WHY in the world do they insist on arguing with me what my nationality is? Im vietnamese DAMMIT!
not to mention being ass raped by tuition. or maybe they can afford to friggin build us a parking garage???!! school is driving me insane..
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| I shuffle across the dorm hallway today and glance at the *cough* beautifully adorned walls covered in inspirational quotes.. I recalled one that specifically stood out - something about "those who mind won't matter, and those who matter won't mind" Perhaps they were words of wisdom designed to make a person feel better about being different? We can say that in America, we encourage differences.. it is the differences in all of us, our culture, language, customs, food, practices that sets the foundation for this country- but.. why do we all try to fit into such a social norm that sets unattainable criteriums. The reality is that there are so few people who matter to you, me, and us that their opinions get blurred out by the rest of our superficial judges in society. There is such a fine line between expressing uniqueness and indecent exposure. If we all went by that quote, why is it wrong to walk down the street naked while catching a bus.. or walking the red carpet looking like elmo from sesame street? Yes, it is ideal for me to think that *I dont give a f*ck about what people think* but to some.. actually many extents, I care way to much. Economy is thriving on our self esteem as I type. Its the nasty undereye circles I get every morning that lead the makeup concealer industry into business. Its the extra bulges around my waist that supports all the diet spoofs we now know as the get-off-your-lazy-ass-and-workout-cuz-nothing-else-works industry. We all want changes. Grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. So yes I admit it, I care. | | |
| Ok so I cant resist the urge of blogging again, I do miss it very much.. being able to let myself go and freewrite... I look at this empty space like its a long lost best friend.. that just listens contently. how I long for a certain understanding. A certain way to be loved...*deep breath* The euphoria.. It been a year.. an entire year. We've been together, we've been apart.. why am i still wondering? questioning ... I really don't want to walk down the same road again, its been terribly lonely and cold. but the contrary would be even more frightening, or perhaps equally as cold. I'm very afraid. I look at old memories like an album of my heart and sob quietly to myself. I dont want it to be another used to be. I have so much I want to say, always a part of me I want to let go. but theres always one I cannot seem to find a way to release. | | |
| school is getting too hectic...xanga's gotta go bye bye.. i will not do any more posts find me on myspace : http://www.myspace.com/106336705 or if you know me..facebook me. take care everyone = ) | | |
| mmm break=sleep nice........ men think us women are wayyy to complicated.. women think men are idiotically unresponsive to feelings of your woman. Its like you get a smart guy.. thinking that if hes smart he can sense when something is wrong or what he said changed how you feel. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO not my luck. Almost like he has this thick skull that blocks out my feelings and cannot recognize my wants and needs. feeling utterly empty... please bless my bf with the IQ to understand whats right and whats wrong to say..common..its common sense.. | | |
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